Sunday, 26 August 2007

Sunny afternoon

Sunday is my lie in day. Struggled to sleep in. Tired but anxiety dreams dominated.

When I got up, I had to read the paper to stop thinking about the boy and the end. Too upsetting if I didn't.

The boy went to the market. He seemed pleased with his purchases. Wouldn't rest when he got back. Keen to do more cooking. To remain active.

It was a sunny day, so we spent some more time in the garden in the late afternoon. One of us holding his hand as he tottered round the garden doing watering. Have to make sure his watering can is not too heavy for him.

He is the most cheerful of the three of us. His lack of use of his left hand is more pronounced today. Everything with his right hand. When he went to bed, we have had to restrict his routine as he can't manage hide and seek any more. He was very tired and after a book was happy to have a nebuliser to go to sleep. But did struggle upright to give me a kiss and a hug when I left the room. And blew me kisses.

1 comment:

JC said...

Hey there buddy.

I'm real sorry I've been AWOL for a while. I've just spent a while reading the entries over the past couple of weeks wiping away the tears and the snot and wishing the lump in my throat would go down.

You asked earlier how much pain the wee man is suffering. I reckon kids don't really get the concept of pain and fear that we adults do, but that's not me underestimating at all what the wee man is going through.

However he's feeling at any point in time, I bet things are made a lot better from his perspective thanks to the the very obvious special love and affection he deservedly gets from everyone around him.

Thinking of you all from many many miles and timezones away.