Saturday, 13 October 2007

Final Straw (Move On Mix)


This blog and the earlier blog record a year of being a parent of a child with cancer. It started as a way for me to try to make sense of the fears for the major brain operations that were the boy's best chance of a longer life. It followed the operations, chemotherapy and the highs and lows of everyday life when your child has cancer. In the end, despite everything, they were ultimately unsuccessful and so this blog ends with the boy's death and funeral. We will have to find a way of carrying on without him.

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It's now time for the boy and little panda to wave goodbye and go and hide.

8 comments:

JC said...

I'm finding it hard to pick the right words....

If I may.....a few thoughts on the past few postings.

Others said it...and I agree. Neither you nor your wife failed Lawrence. You couldn't have done any more....

Your son is going to live on in the memories of countless people who you allowed to get to know him through the expression of your thoughts and emotions in these pages this past 12 months. It's an incredible memorial you've provided.

And thank you so much for posting the tribute from the service. It was very moving. I'm going to try and take Lawrence's advice and not feel sad.

I hope somehow, amidst all the pain and grief that those the closest to him must be feeling right now, the memories are all happy ones.

To me, the only thing any parent can ever want of a child is that they love mum & dad back every bit as much as mum & dad love them. Lawrence never stopped loving his mum & dad, no matter how big the obstacles he had to deal with.

It's easy to see from all you've said in these pages that you never stopped being proud of your son. I have no doubt that Lawrence was every bit as proud of his special dad.

Scott Bickle said...

I'm so sorry about your son. I never thought I would read your writing. I'm Thomas' Dad.
Sarah told me about your family and we have recieved your gifts. I was reading the comments on our blog and wasn't sure who the comment was from. I clicked on your link and the first thing I saw was the picture of your son. I read everything you wrote. I'm so sorry. Thank you for sharing your life with me.

valeria said...

just, sorry, thank for sharing

Greer said...

I set aside a few minutes this afternoon to read your music blog and wound up spending a couple hours reading these instead. You've painted such a vibrant portrait of your amazing son. What a beautiful little soul. I laughed when I read about his love of ambulances and his gourmet cooking, and I just loved seeing all the pictures you shared.

But of course, I've cried more than I've laughed. I happen to know that nothing I can say will be of any comfort, but you and your dear wife have my deepest, most heartfelt sympathy.

goooooood girl said...

Very fine......

Anonymous said...

I am a fan of your Acid Ted blog (being another middle aged man with a penchant for acid house). Through that I came to read this blog. I have never cried after reading something online before, but I have now. What an amazing boy and what amazing parents. Thank you for sharing your life. It reinforces to me that every moment is to be cherished and that even in adversity we can find something, however small, that can still fill our hearts with joy.

Marianne O said...

It is so very difficult to find the words to say how deeply your writings here have touched me... and so I cannot imagine how you found the words to express such love and pain, in the midst of it all.

Bless you, and your wife. Thank you for these glimpses of your beautiful son, and of you as his parents. Bless all the "aunties" who quietly make our lives possible.

Tears, and a smile.

alternative cancer center said...

No mother or father can ever accept the fact that their child left them in an early age. I know it's difficult but I wish you well. I pray for all the best my dear. Keep trusting and keep the faith. For everything happens for a reason.